We are coming up on our 3rd Christmas without our son Jesse.
As the season approaches, I find my heart aching and tears welling up more than usual. I can honestly say, time does not take away the pain but keeping his memory alive softens the grief.
Our first Christmas without him we chose to take a road trip south to visit and celebrate with family. That was a great way to connect and share but yet avoided reliving a Christmas at home without our son. Needless to say, Christmas cards weren’t sent out either. How was I to sign cards without his name? I couldn’t, so I didn’t.
Our second Christmas without Jesse was actually Savannah’s last Christmas at home as a high school student, so we did it up. We all pulled it together… decorations & treats made, a real tree put up, visit from my sister & niece, and a wonderful meal prepared by my Dad. Yes, I even sent out Christmas cards but Jesse was included. I found a healthy photo of him during one of his happiest moments fishing and added it to the card. That seemed to make card giving a bit easier.
Now here it is, the third Christmas approaching and what should I do? I can’t begin to imagine the Christmas celebration Jesse gets to partake of in Heaven but my human heart still wishes he was here with us. After some thought, I decided to dedicate and decorate a small Christmas tree in memory of our Jesse. One of our family traditions has been to give the kids a new ornament every year. Those in addition to the precious ones he made as a child will be a nice start.
This year I would like to open an invitation to you. If you feel moved to provide an ornament for Jesse’s special Christmas tree, I would love to hang it for you! The only thing I ask is that you please write your name on the back…this would really bless my heart! ❤️
As we navigate this path God has placed our family on, I will continue to give thanks for the 18 precious years I was blessed with our son and attempt to keep his memory alive. Thank you for your love, support and prayers.
I love you Jesse! Forever & Always ~Mom
“Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice and my privilege of being a mother. In Your Holy Name. Amen.”
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