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November 19, 2012 / Ingrid

Not Quitting ~ Just Choosing a Different Path

Day 24 post chemo induction of last chemo regimen…

Jesse continues to feel weak, complain of terrible body muscle pains and he still cannot keep much real food down.  Again his platelets were so low that he received another transfusion.  The white blood cell count has not recovered either which can cause lack of energy, immune deficiency and an upset stomach.

Today, Jesse declared he is not a quitter but is choosing a different path.  He refused the intrathecal Methotrexate & AraC spinal injection….actually, refused anymore.  He said he tried, tried and tried but the chemo has not helped him, it has wiped him out and caused irreversible damage.  Several times he has gone into remission but never long enough to start the BMT process.   Jesse is choosing not to die from chemo side effects and would rather go home to enjoy the rest of his time, food, family and friends.

Medically, now it’s just a matter of time.  How long people ask…possibly 4 weeks to 6 months, just depending on how well his body defends infections and produces good blood cells after it recovers from the last chemo blast.  Or unless, the Lord blesses us with a healing miracle.

Lord, I am praying for that miracle and also the softening of Jesse’s heart.  I know he is angry Lord, so please open his eyes to see.  I trust in You. Amen. ~Ingrid



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  1. darcel / Nov 19 2012 8:54 pm



  2. Diane Cunningham / Nov 19 2012 9:00 pm

    We will be praying for Gods will and peace for your family.


  3. shellybelly12 / Nov 19 2012 9:05 pm

    Oh my sweet boy. You were Patricks first friend (Do you remember? He was all of two years old, and he ADORED you!). You will always be with us, and you are loved and prayed for everyday. I will be praying for a miracle and peace for you.


  4. Diane Snellenberger / Nov 19 2012 9:10 pm

    My heart goes out to all of you during this battle. Praying that God blesses you with a miracle.


  5. Todd and Janet Goode / Nov 19 2012 9:17 pm

    Praying for a miracle for you Jesse!! We are also praying for you Scott, your wife, and your whole family!! Prayers for you all!! Love in CHRIST!! Scott, we love you, and even though we have not met your family we love them too!!


  6. Jennifer / Nov 19 2012 9:18 pm

    I can’t imagine what Jesse, you and your family are going through. I must tell you though, please dont give up. I have personal experience that proves that God heals cancer. I would love to tell you my story, but not sure if you really want to or even have the strength to read it right now. I will say that PRAYER WORKS!! Please let me know if you ever want to hear my story, but for now, know that I am praying for Jesse and all of you to have strength and a Miracle to get you through this horrible time. God Bless you all.


  7. Erin Mills Engle / Nov 19 2012 9:22 pm

    We love you Hourigans. Our hearts are aching for you tonight.


  8. jemoto3 / Nov 19 2012 9:29 pm

    Praying for Gods peace and healing for you all. You’ve been through so much in the past months, but yet have shown such strength and faith through it all. My family and I think of you daily and pray often for Jesse’s recovery. May Gods grace shine on you all!


  9. Claudine Cundiff / Nov 19 2012 9:33 pm

    God bless you Jesse!! God is with you and your family.


  10. Lindsay / Nov 19 2012 9:39 pm

    Hello Jesse.

    I am just a complete stranger who has felt the need to keep up with your story. I am praying for you and your family to get through these hard times. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain and hurt you are going through, physically and emotionally. I just pray that God is able to do the things that medicine cannot. I am praying that God gives you the strength to do whatever it takes to make you healthy again. Praying for you from Fort Campbell, Kentucky.



  11. Darcel / Nov 19 2012 9:54 pm

    Jesse, your strength and story is my daily bread. It teaches me every moment to love more, to give more and to be more. You are an inspiration far superior then I have ever known and I want to thank you for that. Thank you for fighting. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being you and never giving up. We are praying for a healing and ask God that a miracle comes your way. I feel so blessed to have met such an amazing and may I say handsome young man. Be great my friend! His love is always with you.


  12. Dee Dee / Nov 20 2012 12:30 am

    Praying with you.


  13. Chrystal / Nov 20 2012 3:33 am

    Jesse I am so very proud of you! You have inspired me for a lifetime! As a mom, I can only hope that Kadin grows up to be the man that you’ve become over the last few months.
    Much love!


  14. Jessica S. / Nov 20 2012 6:34 am

    Praying for you and your miracle! We Believe!!!


  15. Rhonda Holt / Nov 20 2012 6:57 am

    Love you all!


  16. Norma Dollar / Nov 20 2012 7:25 am

    I am praying that God will give you a miracle. They do happen. Jesse I am praying for you and your family to have peace and know that God is with you every step of the way.


  17. Becky Evans / Nov 20 2012 8:21 am

    Praying for the richness of His grace to fill your hearts and home this Thanksgiving…praying for healing waves of joy and laughter in the Hourigan household…and especially for Jesse. Eat, drink & be merry, with the understanding that NONE of us knows how long we have on this earth. Our times are in His hands. As always, you all are in my heart and prayers. Peace & Joy.
    After you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. (1 Peter 5:10 ESV)


  18. Ann Wrenn / Nov 20 2012 8:39 am

    You are all a reminder of how blessed we are to hear and share your witness. I have never had the opportunity to hear first hand the love, laughter, sadness, hope, etc., etc. that you share on this website. May God bless you with a miracle everyday.


  19. Marsha / Nov 20 2012 8:56 am

    praying for a miracle may god wrap you and your family in his loving arms and give you peace and comfort.


  20. Cindy Chambers / Nov 20 2012 9:03 am

    May Gods grace shine upon you daily Jesse!! You and your fight for life has been a huge inspiration to me and my family for the past few months!!! I remember you walking “Blue” in our neighborhood and you were always smiling and you would wave or speak to us everytime we saw you. I pray that God will send a miracle your way because we all know that Miracles still happen!!! You have fought a great fight and have given it your all and we are so proud of you for that!! Please know that we are continuing to pray for you and your family daily!!!!


  21. Candace Gentry / Nov 20 2012 9:04 am

    For some reason I cannot put in a “post”. Jesse, thanks for texting me the other night. Although I did not know what to say I hope you could feel my love. I am so proud of the man you have grown to be!!! I will never forget you and Savannah coming to my front door, I was holding a 2 day old baby- to see if we had kids! You had the biggest smile when I opened the door and Savannah was so shy! ☺
    I love you all so much. You, Scott, Ingrid and Savannah! You all have such strength and have been through something most cannot imagine! We love you so much! I hope you will be home soon to enjoy your family without the sterility of a hospital room!


  22. Jeennifer Benjamin / Nov 20 2012 9:10 am

    Hi Jesse,
    I don’t know you but your story touched me. Just wanted you to know I’m praying for you. Keep your spirits up 🙂


  23. Denny & Kathy Keith / Nov 20 2012 10:41 am


    We also continue to pray that God has a miracle in his plans for you.


  24. Mary Lou / Nov 20 2012 12:40 pm

    Hi Jesse,

    I do not know you personally but have followed your story and have prayed for you and your family everyday and will continue to keep you in my prayers. May you find comfort and peace as God hold’s you in his arms. God Bless.


  25. Linda / Nov 20 2012 2:34 pm

    Jesse, I’m thanking God that you have the miracle of the Holy Spirit living in you. I pray you are comforted by knowing that God is alive and working in you even in these hard days.


  26. Nicky Collie / Nov 20 2012 4:20 pm

    Jesse, You don’t know me but I go to church with Bailey and Brittney whom you knew from RCS. We have prayed for you at our church and Kim Jacobs always keeps our church posted. You are a blessing and God still has a plan for your life!! I know you have already inspired and changed lives with your courage. I will continue to pray for you.
    Nicky Collie, Roxboro, NC


  27. Chris len wai / Nov 20 2012 6:58 pm

    my prayers go out to u jesse. hang in there buddy and GOD BLESS.


  28. Beth Young and Nick McFarland / Nov 20 2012 9:09 pm

    Words don’t seem adequate – I am praying for you all. I know that nothing that happens has not already been sifted through God’s hands and I pray that you feel his arms around the four of you. I am praying for a healing miracle for Jesse knowing that God still performs miracles. Praying that he gives you all peace and rest. Beth and nick McFarland


  29. Macbeth / Nov 21 2012 7:01 am

    Being home with family, friends and FOOD is the best medicine. Love you all.


  30. May the good Lord be with you during your pain. I know and respect a decision not to do anymore chemo. I have heard and seen first hand the damage caused by this. I will say a prayer for healing and for the family. Cancer is a serious disease and it has taken two of my family members away. I am inspired by this story and all the people that care enough to say something. God Bless you young man. Fight the good fight and know you are loved and you have left a mark on many peoples lives. A good mark . . one that will be there forever. I sincerely hope your pain is minimal and your comfortable.


  31. Sher Welch-Lambert / Nov 21 2012 6:20 pm

    Hi Jesse! Cancer is a threat to my family as well. My cousin is stage IV colorectal and is only 43 years old. He lives in Mt. Clemens, MI. He is with his friends in home hospice. This stuff makes me very angry too. I’ve lost my aunt, mother, now my cousin and watch your blog and you’re angry and frustrated and who could blame you! I have lupus which isn’t cancer but we are treated with chemo drugs too, a much lower dose than you, but the methotrexate still makes me sick and barfing and just overall ticked off at the world! I pray/wish you no pain, good recovery of your counts, and a normal life that you deserve! You do inspire me to be a better person! You keep on keepin on my friend and fight the fight and prove that cancer wrong!


  32. Brandi / Nov 22 2012 7:01 am

    I cannot imagine what you all are going through but just trying to shatters my heart. I pray that God brings each one of you comfort and peace in the way that only he could.


  33. Amy Bowes / Nov 23 2012 7:56 pm

    What an inspiration your entire family is. We will continue to keep you in our prayers!!


  34. Christy Rush / Nov 26 2012 9:03 pm

    Jesse I remember a little over a year ago when we had our bike trip in Michigan with your grandpa Gary and met you. We all went out to lunch together and enjoyed each others company. After we left you had made an impression on all of us because we all had commented on what a great kid you were. You were very polite, caring, mature person and it showed us all that day. We have been following your long journey and have been inspired with all your courage and strength. There are miracles out there and I hope the next one goes comes your way. I have witnessed a true miracle with a friend of mine that had a tumor in her brain that was cancer. She has been in remission for at least 10 years no. You deserve the next miracle.


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