Not Quitting ~ Just Choosing a Different Path
Day 24 post chemo induction of last chemo regimen…
Jesse continues to feel weak, complain of terrible body muscle pains and he still cannot keep much real food down. Again his platelets were so low that he received another transfusion. The white blood cell count has not recovered either which can cause lack of energy, immune deficiency and an upset stomach.
Today, Jesse declared he is not a quitter but is choosing a different path. He refused the intrathecal Methotrexate & AraC spinal injection….actually, refused anymore. He said he tried, tried and tried but the chemo has not helped him, it has wiped him out and caused irreversible damage. Several times he has gone into remission but never long enough to start the BMT process. Jesse is choosing not to die from chemo side effects and would rather go home to enjoy the rest of his time, food, family and friends.
Medically, now it’s just a matter of time. How long people ask…possibly 4 weeks to 6 months, just depending on how well his body defends infections and produces good blood cells after it recovers from the last chemo blast. Or unless, the Lord blesses us with a healing miracle.
Lord, I am praying for that miracle and also the softening of Jesse’s heart. I know he is angry Lord, so please open his eyes to see. I trust in You. Amen. ~Ingrid